This day in my history ...

can I erase this day ..
make it not exist..
so that my life would have changed for the better?
I would be in places with different kin and friends..
who knows happy and contented...
respected by society
not weighed down by controversy or whispering...
or superstitious woman who wound my heart on a happy occasion...
some normalcy ....some blanket which covers me from radars...
a companion who will take my silliness and pamper me with words and care...
a shoulder to shoulder my burdens...
and make me push on towards a common dream...or goal...

but then ...I realize i would not have had my angel ....
if it had not been for that fateful day
for t you are my guiding force when i struggle and stagger and wonder
if this is life that i was meant to live...

you make it a little bit more bearable and
some sense into this life that haunts me daily with its pain...

M M (2010)